Hi y’all! I’ve been having a rough time this week.
I usually try to keep things pretty positive here. There’s enough sadness and frustration in the world. However, I’m not immune from the hard times either. I know, as an internet denizen, I’m supposed to put on the happy face and tell folks that everything is always roses and cherry blossoms with me.
I can’t live that lie.
My personal growth requires being open and honest with myself. Which means that I have to be open and honest with my internet family as well. I promise that I will never present myself to be something on this blog that I’m not. I accept myself for how I am and I own my feelings.
Some readers are here because of that honesty and I love that. I’m glad you enjoy what I do. If you are new, welcome to the blog. I’ve got more inspiring pieces over here, right here, and over here. Feel free to enjoy those. This post is not like most of the others.
Anyway…
I’ve been having a hard time at work. I believe that every teacher can tell you the same thing right now. It’s hard to remember my why every day. It’s more of a struggle constantly and I’m giving serious thought to leaving the profession. I’ve taking classes in geospatial analysis and I believe this will be my next career move. It would be amazing if I could be creative for a living. I could write my blogs and books and be comfortable. Perhaps I will one day.
For now, I was upset on Twitter the other day and vented soem feelings as a series of tweets. I’ve collected them below.
About That Time
If the phrase “narrowly escaped” enters your head when you leave work for the day, it may be time for another job.
If you have to take time in the parking lot to mentally prepare yourself before clocking in every day, it may be time for another job.
If you have to cry while you are on the clock at any point, it may be time for another job.
If you have to sit in complete silence to recover from your shift, it may be time for another job.
If you have no idea of your purpose in that place, it may be time for another job.
If you have to contend with the imminent threat of physical injury or contagion, which definitely was not on the job description, it may be time for another job.
If you can compare battle scars with your coworkers when neither of you fights for a living (officially), it may be time for another job.
If your job unsettles you deep in your spirit on a regular basis, it may be time for another job.
If you don’t have the energy to care for yourself or your loved ones after work, it may be time for another job.
If you drag yourself to work when you feel awful because it would be more work to find someone to cover for you instead of just suffering through it, it may be time for another job.
If you are constantly bombarded with messages about how you are doing a terrible job when you know you’re giving 110%, it may be time for another job.
If the thought of going to work makes you want to curl up into a ball and die every morning, it may be time for another job.
If the stress and anxiety from your job are becoming a detriment to your mental health, it may be time for another job.
If stress and anxiety from your job are affecting your physical health, it may be time for another job.
If stress and anxiety from your job are affecting your personal relationships, it may be time for another job.
If you ever seriously consider causing another person bodily harm while on the clock, it may be time for another job.
If you have to remind yourself that prison is never a good place to end up (for whatever reason) while on the clock, it may be time for another job.
If all you can manage is to go to bed after work every day because you are that drained, it may be time for another job.
Don’t Wait…
Do what’s best for you. I say that all the time to other people but I rarely take my own excellent advice.
That rant was mostly directed at myself. I know what I need to do, execution is the tricky part. I know I’m not alone with these feelings. Change is an uncomfortable but necessary part of growth.
We need to get comfortable with being uncomfortable.
Take care. Be safe. I love you.
I’m so sorry you’re having such a tough time at the moment. I do agree that having an outlet like this is a good way of trying to offload. 🤍
I went from full time teacher to part time. November 1 is my last day. I was a teacher but doing too much. I felt tired, sad, and pissed. I had to step back. Sometimes when some people know you can do it all, they’ll take advantage and let me tell you I went OFF! I slapped my notice down on the table and dared anyone to say anything. Yep, its time to go because I can’t and won’t.
Glad you made the healthy choice!
Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m really sorry that you’re going through such a tough time. Having an outlet like this really helps. Send love <3
Great post thanks for sharing! Siobhan ♡ | Vegan Babe Life
It’s not easy to go through the tougher times and I’m cheering you on as you work through yours! I 100% agree that the universe gives us little signs and help along the way and we need to pay attention to them and let them help us as we navigate life, etc. I hope you find your way (teaching is so hard — I found this too). Sending you good vibes!
It’s weird, isn’t it? That we always know what to do. It’s the execution that’s the tricky bit. Not because it’s super hard or anything either. Sometimes it just feels like there’s a block of sorts, preventing me from taking the necessary actions. Anyway, thanks for this post!
Thanks for reading!