I think I've reached a new limit. The point at which i feel like I'm going to crack up. The point at which i feel like my chest will explode if I don't do something. The point when nothing I've tried before works. The point where I know i shouldn't be. It's scary. But I, … Continue reading Day 413: Not ok
I'm in a bad place right now. Real bad. Like, you wouldn't believe how bad. Scary bad. People ask me what's wrong. I can't answer. It feels like everything is wrong. And in a way, it is. I think. I only have the way I feel to judge by. And everything feels bad and sad … Continue reading Day 409
You know how I'm always saying that pent up emotions will kill you? How I encourage you guys to get things off your chest? How I know without question that unexpressed feelings are killing more of us than medical science can explain? Ever wonder how I am so sure about that?
Depression is a weird thing. It manifests in so many ways. There's the common symptoms: Lack of energy, lack of intrest, lethargy, lack of focus. There's also some folks that throw themselves into something in an attempt to avoid their feelings. "I don't have time to stay in bed, I have a deadline." "I can't … Continue reading Day 391: Ebb
This time last year, I was happy and in love. I wrote a sappy post for the man I loved and was glad to share with the world. Yesterday, I felt amazing. I was all set to put another sappy post into the universe. For the first time in ages, I felt as if I … Continue reading Day 388: Relapse
I'll be the first to admit, I have trouble with Christianity. There are a lot of so-called Christians that have turned me off towards organized religion. "You need to go to church." "You need to pay your tithes." "You can't dress like that here." "You can't bring that heathen in here with you." Their nasty … Continue reading Day 349: Lay Down your Burdens
I was trying to work on some assignments this morning but it was more difficult than normal. I couldn't focus. My thoughts wouldn't solidify. I could barely form coherent sentences. Plus, I couldn't stop shaking my left leg. I mean, rapid fire bouncing. I know this is just an anxiety thing. I know I should … Continue reading Day 341: Shaking tables
I very nearly lost my shit on a bunch of kids at work today. I really wanted to start screaming at them To be fair, they were asking for it. They were not following directions and giggling in a very obnoxious way. You can only ask someone to be quiet and receive disrespect in return … Continue reading Day 318: Buttoned Lips