One must experience the darkness to fully appreciate the light.
"Life will happen and I will be back to square one, having gained nothing but heartache for my efforts. A regular reminder that I do not deserve this happiness that I keep aching for."
"My emotional wellness had taken a backseat to being a people pleaser and I was falling apart as a result. I didn’t live for myself, opting instead to shamble along as I rotted inside."
“Teachers teach for the outcome, not the income.” That sound nice, doesn’t it? Until you really think about it. It’s true to a degree, but don’t get it twisted. If teaching was a totally unpaid gig, there would be a whole lot fewer of us. Bills don’t pay themselves. Don't get me wrong. I love … Continue reading Outcome over Income. Not in this economy.
It's been a week, friends. I don't think I've really been accomplishing the things I'd like to. Mostly because I'm spending so much of my "free" time being too tired to think. The children have been extra challenging over the past month. Many days, its all I can do to get back home without crying … Continue reading Day by Day
Okay, so you may have noticed that I disappeared for a while. Sorry about that. I'm doing okay. I didn't do anything too dangerous. I didn't hurt myself or anyone else. I did a little property damage but that's neither here nor there. I didn't intend to be away for as long as I have … Continue reading I’ve returned!
I knew it was a bad idea to spend any time online today. I knew it. It didn't help. I knew it wouldn't. But because I'm a glutton for misery, I decided to scroll through Facebook and Twitter for a while... Like an idiot. And now I feel like a worthless shit pile again. great.
I think I've reached a new limit. The point at which i feel like I'm going to crack up. The point at which i feel like my chest will explode if I don't do something. The point when nothing I've tried before works. The point where I know i shouldn't be. It's scary. But I, … Continue reading Day 413: Not ok
I'm in a bad place right now. Real bad. Like, you wouldn't believe how bad. Scary bad. People ask me what's wrong. I can't answer. It feels like everything is wrong. And in a way, it is. I think. I only have the way I feel to judge by. And everything feels bad and sad … Continue reading Day 409
You know how I'm always saying that pent up emotions will kill you? How I encourage you guys to get things off your chest? How I know without question that unexpressed feelings are killing more of us than medical science can explain? Ever wonder how I am so sure about that?
Life has started coming at me a bit too quickly for my liking. Things are happening faster than I can process them. My emotions can't keep up. I'm worried about burning out faster than expected. Not that I really expect to burn out... Actually, yes I did. I did expect to wear myself down. I … Continue reading Day 406: Pothole
