One must experience the darkness to fully appreciate the light.
Okay, so you may have noticed that I disappeared for a while. Sorry about that. I'm doing okay. I didn't do anything too dangerous. I didn't hurt myself or anyone else. I did a little property damage but that's neither here nor there. I didn't intend to be away for as long as I have … Continue reading I’ve returned!
Falling Falling Falling
I knew it was a bad idea to spend any time online today. I knew it. It didn't help. I knew it wouldn't. But because I'm a glutton for misery, I decided to scroll through Facebook and Twitter for a while... Like an idiot. And now I feel like a worthless shit pile again. great.
I think I've reached a new limit. The point at which i feel like I'm going to crack up. The point at which i feel like my chest will explode if I don't do something. The point when nothing I've tried before works. The point where I know i shouldn't be. It's scary. But I, … Continue reading Day 413: Not ok
Today was better than all of last week. If anyone spared any prayers for me, I thank you. I just got in because Mondays are one of my busy days. I just want to hit the sack. So I am.
I have to go back to work tomorrow. Hopefully, it won't be too tragic.
Today was better. I made some food. Worked on a project. Watched some Olympics.. Better than yesterday
I'm in a bad place right now. Real bad. Like, you wouldn't believe how bad. Scary bad. People ask me what's wrong. I can't answer. It feels like everything is wrong. And in a way, it is. I think. I only have the way I feel to judge by. And everything feels bad and sad … Continue reading Day 409
You know how I'm always saying that pent up emotions will kill you? How I encourage you guys to get things off your chest? How I know without question that unexpressed feelings are killing more of us than medical science can explain? Ever wonder how I am so sure about that?
Ever want to scream and cry and lie around all day? sigh. Me too.